Still here. A wreck but still here.
So something happened during the night before the English PSPM exam. No details required but it turned me into an emotional wreck that night. One moment I was furious and the next I was shedding unexpected tears. When you experience doing something painful for the 1st time, you don't know how you're going to handle it and that scared the shit out of me.
I put on a normal face for the rest of the week even when the person that contributed to my anger and pain was sitting in close proximity to me in the exam hall. Honestly, it wasn't as easy as I made it look to be. But then again, I'm great with faking smiles.
Wrong Man For The Job suddenly appeared when I studying Math by the balcony of my floor in the wee hours of the morning. My phone was on shuffle and suddenly the song came on. For a moment every math equation went out the window and was replaced by the lyrics. It was the song I was looking for and it was under my nose the whole time.
Mind you, everytime I go through something major, I tend to go find a song that suits the situation. In that moment I found it. It fit perfectly, the lyrics, the melody and how I was feeling. Yesterday came to me after I left college. I was at my grandma's and it popped up like the Jojo song. Yesterday gave me strength to move on while Wrong Man For The Job gave me realization that it happened and I should except it.
Ever since then whenever during a random shuffling day those 2 songs appear on my playlist, I sort of briefly recalled the incident. It doesn't hurt as much as it use to but completely erasing it from my head is something I'm still trying to conquer. Cause when it involves someone you care about, erasing everything is not a piece of cake.
Just needed to let it out.
Indulging in the beats of : Yesterday by Toni Braxton
Chou
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