Shana's Burn Book

You shot the bullet , you shot the bullet that killed me Not feeling my heart beat and I was dying So I know that tattoos are strictly forbidden in our religion. There are many reasons like blood infection from the needles and what not. But that hasn't stopped me from visualizing with one. I'm not gonna actually get one. I might be haram but tattoos are just crossing the line. But I do have friends that have some. These are the real shit, done at professional places and I have to say, they look awesome. I use to fantasize all the different designs placed in strategic places on my body. I mean I watched Miami Ink and LA ink during my holidays and fell in love with it. I had a fake airbrushed tattoo last week with Tasya on my collarbone. It was a picture of a pair of gothic angel wings. I loved it even though people tend to stare. I went to this mamak called Canai twice in 2 days and the waiter remembered me, indicating on my fake tattoo as an identification. It was c...

I've searched my heart over So many many times No you and I, is like no stars to light the sky at night So in my last post, I wrote about possible ignorance when it comes to cheating in a relationship. But today I wanna express another question that has been playing in my mind for the past week. Why do guys cheat in the first place?  Are you bored of your girlfriend? Does she lack in something? Is she bad in bed? Are you rebelling against the relationship? Are you not getting some? What?? Cuba cerita sikit...  I know why girls cheat. I can predict why cause I am a girl. But boys? God there is some complexity hiding behind all that simplicity. A complexity I wanna discover. Maybe next time I should ask one of my guys, "Why the fuck are you doing this?". The reasons that come to my mind are there but whether they are accurate is unknown . I think that the 'thrill' is one reason. Men like to play with fire that adds to a level of danger. Which in return...

If you feeling guilty baby, just keep lying to me And I'ma do the same, and I had to play the game No I won't ever complain Just keep lying to me So I ain't a saint when it comes to my unconventional relationship with boys. I can say that some of the boys that I fool around with are actually taken . Yeah, bitchy.... I know -__-' But thanks to a song, it made wonder about something. Do the girlfriends know that their boyfriends are fooling around with other girls? I don't associate with the girlfriends nor do I want to know them but this question was spinning in my head for a while. Do they know and act ignorant towards it because they love their man so much? Or maybe, just maybe, these men are actually good at keeping secrets because I have never experience a girlfriend come up to me and say "Stay away from my man, bitch" . It would be cool though. LOL. Just a curious thought, that's all. FYI, the song I'm referring to is linked below a...

You can't stop clickin' at me,  Writin' bout me, Tweetin' bout me I can't stop, this what is gon' be, my swagger's in check. Honestly saying, I have a certain admiration towards assholes. Most of them are good for nothing SOBs but I still do have a slight fondness towards them. Their confidence intrigues me as well as infuriates me. So what makes an ass from my point of view? Well they all have one similarity and that is the fact that they think they are all that. They think that they're the shit. You get what I mean? It's that cocky brash attitude that makes the asses. But guess what I discovered? There are actually many types of asses that are cocky towards different things. The most common ass are the ones that believe that they can get any girl in a snap of a finger. Whether its attention, affection or even some pussy, 'difficulty' is not in their vocabulary. Then there are the ones that believe they are smarter than everyone...

Don't just say, goodbye I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding If that'll make it right You know how I cope with all the negativity?  I look at the positive. In my world where crap keeps falling down like a thunderstorm , I like to see the good in people . I choose to see good because I'm afraid I'm gonna go crazy one day if I let the bad get to me. There is good in everyone, whether you see it or not. Its just that sometimes people just choose to be bad. But that doesn't mean good does not exist within them. When I look at someone and all you can see during the first impression is a human being tainted with bad inside and out, I try to find what made them that way. You're not born bad, something must have happen to turn you that way. You gotta go deep. I call it the "root". You know, like the root of all evil. That villainy must have sprouted from somewhere, right? But it's just a habit of me seeing the good in...

This goes out to all my girls That's in the club rocking the latest Who will buy it for themselves and get more money later I hung out with my little bitch, Tasya today. She’s the only bitch that lives close enough to me to hang out. Plus she has a mode of transportation which makes it easier for me.  We had this intense conversation about our families and the fact that we both come from a divorced parentage. Through that similarity, I found someone who has a parallel view of matrimony as me. I was so relieved that I actually fist bumped her out of respect.  Honestly speaking, I don’t have a very positive view of marriage. Sometimes I don’t even have a positive view towards relationships because I have this fear of being caged and controlled .   I don’t like relying shit on people. Even when there are people who have the capability to take care of me, I still act like they’re gonna leave at any point. I’m always ready. So when it comes to marriage...

You ain't got the right to tell me When and where to go, no right to tell me Acting like you own me lately Indulging in the beats of : Mr Know It All by Kelly Clarkson Chou