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If You Wanna Go, Go.

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This goes out to all my girls
That's in the club rocking the latest
Who will buy it for themselves and get more money later


I hung out with my little bitch, Tasya today. She’s the only bitch that lives close enough to me to hang out. Plus she has a mode of transportation which makes it easier for me. 

We had this intense conversation about our families and the fact that we both come from a divorced parentage. Through that similarity, I found someone who has a parallel view of matrimony as me. I was so relieved that I actually fist bumped her out of respect. 

Honestly speaking, I don’t have a very positive view of marriage. Sometimes I don’t even have a positive view towards relationships because I have this fear of being caged and controlled.  I don’t like relying shit on people. Even when there are people who have the capability to take care of me, I still act like they’re gonna leave at any point. I’m always ready.

So when it comes to marriage, I’m not in a hurry. I wouldn’t mind getting married well into my thirties. Why? I wanna make a life first. I wanna be financially secure. I wanna buy my own property, drive my own car and have a stable income. I don’t wanna get all that from my future husband even though it’s his responsibility to provide some of those things for me. 

I have this way of thinking where if in any case, my husband decides to leave me or I decide to leave him, I can do it without hesitation because I’m secure.  I have the stability to be on my own. If he gave everything to me and one day he decides to take it all back, where the hell would I go? 

I would want to have the security to say 
“If you wanna go, go. Take your shit with you cause I have my own.” 

Sounds darn right egotistical and not to mention pessimistic but I’m that independent. So I’m not a ‘mata duitan’ when I say I wanna establish my own money before I get married. I just want to feel personally safe. To find someone that shares that way of thinking is just plain relieving. I am not alone bitches :)

Indulging in the beats of : Run The World by The Glee Cast

Chou

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