Shana's Burn Book

So kiss me goodbye, I can the venom in your eyes. So today was fun. I was sick and my vision was blurry throughout the morning. Thank god I had some extra panadol which doped me up good for a couple of hours. We didn't learn much today. Most of the teachers were not present. Our new EST teacher came in and we started taking pictures with her. She saw us playing around with Fifa's camera and decided to join in on the vainness. I hope that I took everyones potrait picture. I don't want to miss out anyone. Well to the bunch that never came during the scheduled photography sessions, its your freaking loss. After school we had a photo shoot with the whole class. Well everyone who was able to stay back and whoever was present that day. We played around with the balloons and especially the beautifully decorated board. I can't wait to get the pictures ans see how good they look! I think we're going to have a kiss ass magazine spread. Well I hope we can. Chou

Mel: I'd like to see you have a little direction.  Cher: I have direction!  Josh: Yeah, towards the mall.  Today was sort of frustrating. We found out that our add maths project was done incorrectly. The results of the project were all right but teacher said to do it again cause our procedure was wrong. After redoing, the new results were the same as the first one. What a waste of time. I should have gone back to class and learn math instead. History was boring as usual. It is the only subject where I feel like sleeping all the time. In my semi awake state, I thought of all the things I like just so I can stay awake and look like I'm paying attention. Usually the thougth that makes me conscious is stuff about Darius.  After recess, I skipped Physics to help decorate the board. Its coming up great and I love the pretty colours. Can't wait to see the finishing product tomorrow. It was fun cause Fifa kept singing all these songs which made me sing along. We sang that thing you...

Cher: Would you call me selfish?  Dionne: No, not to your face.  Today was sort of all right. Our new EST teacher is actually cool. We had an ice breaking session with her today. The whole class could not stop laughing at her jokes. Physics was spent redoing PEKA and gossiping about daddy and other stupid stuff at the back of the lab. Apparently tears of joy from Jiah were witness again. After school, I hanged out with Mia. We talked about boy dilemmas and everything mean in between. I can't help but look at the flyers of the xavier team being thrown up the air. But when they fall and no one catches them, now that was a sight to see. It was heavily raining after PBSM. So we hanged out with T and C. We talked and critisized about our friends that have left CBN. Since T is new, she didn't really knew all the girls we were talking about. Plus she didn't know how egocentric they were. Believe me this afternoon, my meanness was on full swing.  I watched Clueless yesterday. Fina...

Honesty  Is what you need  It sets you free  Like someone to save you  Let it go  Today I discovered that I so need to brush up on my BM. Chemistry after school was fun for me. Teacher was in a light mood and she even joked around. I was discussing with Nurul and Zoey that I keep listening to semi-lesbian songs lately. Apparently they like those kind of songs too. What Zoey said was- "It's just a phase we all go through." Lesbian phase. Odd...... Afterwards reality hit me. I needed a dose of it. I think this past week has been a big eye opener for me. But this does not mean I am completely going to change. I'll tone it down but I'm not going lose it instantly. I think this time i'm going to do what I did back in from 3. That plan worked for me. It was hard but I got through it.  Sympathy is deeply felt for the sanctimonious. A big hug to all my Bs . Thanks for waking me up and thanks for staying. Chou

Did you ever feel like you should have said Something smarter at that time, Did you ever feel like you should have kept  It all to yourself, Did you ever think it might be your fault  And never promise anymore, Did you ever think it might not be me.  I did not feel good today. Health wise that is. Plus my throat felt like it was burning the whole morning. No more ice for me. Studies went back to normal today. It felt good to actually learn something new today. Today wasn't much. It felt like any moody manic monday.  The frigid surrounding was still going on around me. I acted as blithe as possible but I kept thinking that theres go my hope of leaving school in peace. Apparently serenity isn't my best friend. Figures... I guess I'm tired of acting like mary-freaking-sunshine all the time. So what if i'm rogue and vile ? The frosty atmosphere is not affecting me that much. I think that I have grown use to it. A couple of years ago, it would drive me insane. But I have le...

I cannot go to the ocean I cannot drive the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning Without you on my mind This is weekend is mostly spent watching TV at my dad's house. Since it was father's day , I decided I should go to see him. We did nothing on Saturday. We couldn't use the internet much cause my was dad cleaning up all the rubbish and updating multiple softwareds on the laptop. I saw the end part of The Count of Monte Cristo . I never noticed how absolutely hot Henry Cavill is. He looked GO-OD in that movie. No wonder he was Stephanie Meyer's first choice as Edward. That jawline and debonair personality is a definite turn on. I'm currently downloading the movie. I am so going to watch The Tudors now thanks to him being in it. Did you know that he almost got the part of James Bond but the directors thought he was too young for the role.  Today we went to eat lunch at McD. Giant Shah Alam was deserted. After the fuel raise, not many people are going o...

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are. After what happened today, the moral of the story is that the school needs to get a new PA system . The performances were kind of dissapointing. I expected something more witty, exciting and unexpected. But all we got was the screeching sounds of high frequency . The guy teachers' perfomance was so funny! All that news paper. I think I spent most of the time doing maths with Zoey. Plus we had discussions about my novel. I have never discussed my novel with her. She doesn't read it. But when she read my ending, she started to get interested. I told her about my car dilemma and she totally helped me out. I chose a Maserati . It is so gorgeous! Now my ending is completely different because she gave so much new ideas. I spent half the day without a camisole and if the sun blared, you could totally see my bra. Thank god during recess, I got my camisole back. The thing that p...

What is freedom of expression? Without the freedom to offend, it ceases to exist. I seriously felt like this whole week was a waste of time at school. The only class where we actually learned something today was Physics. I gave like 80% of my attention to daddy.  I know that if I gave 100, I would have fallen into slumber in 3 minutes flat.  The morning was spent reading the newspaper and anticipating the answers for my survey. The amount of honesty written in my BA is incredible. We had fun laughing and joking about each others' answers. Especially the answers from question number 4 which is " do you plan to keep your virginity until you get married? " A lot of unconditional answers came up. During the prefect election, I only voted like 5 people. Most of them use to go to primary school with me and have worked under me when I was a prefect. I couldn't care less about the others. There was also a weak moment in class when I got tempestuous because I decided to pick...

Do not rejoice in his defeat, you men. For though the bastard is dead,  The bitch that bore him is again in heat. So the first half of school was mostly spent without learning. Apparently all the teachers were M.I.A. The prefect campaign was boring. They should seriously cut down their talking time to only 2 minutes. More than that and our attention would already be drifting away. Since not many of those nominted juniors gave me their campaign stickers, I'm only going to vote for 3 people. 2 of them actually gave me their stickers.  The extended recess was spent brain storming on t-shirt statements for cheer comp. The supporter t-shirt for xavier was decent looking but I thought it would be cool to make my own. I want the shirt to say something mean and sarcastic. Plus my sister is a t-shirt dealer so she can design and send the t-shirt for printing. Zoey and Nurul are in it too. No promises though. After school I went o PBSM which was such a bore. Before it started, I followed ...

Are you sure you got the right Bitch? So today was a little OK compared to yesterday. I was dissapointed at my BM marks but was surprise because I got the highest. Who would have known? Big props to Alin and Jiah for helping me out a lot when it comes to forming BM sentences.  I spent another boring hour at the Magazine Club. I end up writing my survey and the first person to write it was Bree and Woogy. Bree was especially honest in that survey. I did not know that inside that cute little petite head lay a lot of mischief.  I went back with Mia. We went to have lunch at Ampang Park. It turms out the La Manila restaurant there was closed down. Now where am I suppose to buy great fried Kuey Teow ? So we went to Dlite. I have passed that place numerous times and inhaled the awesome smell of laksa. So today since I was hungry , I ordered one bowl. I believe its one of the best laksa i have ever eaten. The other place where hey serve great laksa was at JJ One Utama. I bonded with Mia...

When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there. I went back to reality this morning. All the papers went pouring in like rain. I was frustrated the whole day. I felt like burning everyone and saying Fuck Off to every soul I saw. Don't ask me why, you guys wouldn't understand anyway.  During recess at least my friends attempted to make me laugh. They only got a sarcastic smile but I was grateful they were trying. Zoey was especially understanding. She was really concerned and I loved her even more.  Nurul even canceled some outing just so she could go back with me and find out what the hell was wrong with me. I didn't want to burden her but eventually I poured everything out. It felt good and she listened intentively. Sometimes I feel like I don't appreciate my best freinds enough. Last night, I was running to go the TV room in the dark of the night where everyone was asleep except for my sister...

I think the only wedding I am truly going to enjoy is my own. So I went to 2 weddings in 2 days. Thank god the first one was held at night so I would not have to face the scorching sun. The first wedding was held just a couple of doors down the road. I don't know those people but I guess it was cool to go there. I met Ana who lives a block from my house. She's fun and we totally have the same brain when it comes to patience and boys. The bride was a nyonya. She looked pretty. Plus the color theme of the wedding was beautiful and in my 17 years of my life, this is the first time I have seen this color being used for a wedding. The color was this pretty shade of baby blue . Usually the normal weddings that I attend, the colors tend to me more to the earth tones like yellow, brown, maroon or the most popular, gold. Mix those hot colors with the humid weather of Malaysia and you got yourself a sweaty wedding. The blue wedding was just the akad nikah. Ana told me that their recepti...

Vanity is so secure in the heart of man that everyone wants to be admired: even I who write this, and you who read this- Blaise Pascal So this past week, everyone keeps asking me whether or not I am going to the Summer Splash this weekend. The answer to that question is NO . The reason I'm not going is because I do not choose to go and because I'm going to a wedding in Raub. I was offered to go there by friends but I still said no. I firmly believe that the Summer Splash is a social gathering that emphasize solely on showing off your so called hot body. It is an event where people come wearing almost nothing to show to the world and especially the opposite sex that their body is worth looking for. Are you fucking kidding me? Why would I want to go to a disgusting vanity fair full of half naked people? Don't try to convince me that the party is a place to have fun and meet new people. Yeah, I admit that these are the partial reasons why the event is held in the first place...

And if I bleed, I'll bleed, Knowing you don't care. And if I sleep just to dream of you I'll wake without you there, Isn't something missing? So I thought i got over my infatuation of the Twilight movie amd most in particular Edward Cullen. But after opening Tiara's blog page and seeing Robert Pattinson's gorgeous visage at the top, the craving feeling of wanting more starts to build up. After showering this morning, I listened to my Ipod. I put in on shuffle and the song that came up was Missing by Evanescence. That brought back so much New Moon memories. All of you know that I obsess when it comes to music. So when I read New Moon back in form 2, I needed songs to accomodate my reading.  There were 2 songs that embodied the sad sacrificial self angry feeling of the book. It was  Missing by Evanescence and Distance by Faktion . I fell so deep into the book and stupidly let myself feel all the emotions Bella felt.  The song that got to me was Endless Su...

But I can't figure it out Just how to make it perfect for you But, I'm closer than I was Yesterday I haven't been to Times Square for quite some time now. I think the last time I went there was during Syafiqah'a birthday 2 years ago. The amount of LBs there were uncountable. They were everywhere and they looked horrible. My eyes were literally burning from all the fashion disasters that walked that mall. I was there with my sister and dad. We went and watched Indiana Jones . All the LBs were busy lining up to watch Apa Kata Hati? There were so many poser dudes there walking around acting all swag with their RM6 Chanel sunglasses on. Seriously, panas sangat ke kat dalam Times Square tu? My dad made a joke when we were eating lunch saying, "When you see a guy wearing shades inside a mall, go up to him and give him 50 cents. Then say to him- Kesian orang buta ni." That made my sister and I laugh so hard. We went around browsing for a while. My dad was so...

Everything's wrong,  Nothing's going right, Just know that I'm not hard to find. So just say the word and I'll race to you tonight and I'll be right there by your side holding on. Ok I know i said in the last post that the trip to the Islamic Museum was going to be completely boring. But honestly, it wasn't all bad. I learned a lot I guess. We went to the Power For Women convention where they showcase all the powerful women in Islam. The normal girls were there like Khadijah and Aishah. There was also the Queen of Sheba, Che Siti Wan Kembang, Tun Fatimah, Mumtaz Mahal and an empress named Zubaydah. I was a little surprised to see a woman with a name exactly like mine. I have heard and read the history of her. She was the wife of Harun Ar-Rashid. I think we learned about him in history or agama... Anyway she built a huge canal that provided water to the people of Mecca. It was big deal back then. There is a few things we have in common like the fact we both ...

  Darius then brought the wavy hair to one side of her shoulder and placed his chin on the other. He gazed at Sienna’s grey eyes with love through the reflection. I haven't been blogging much. This is because there is nothing interesting to blog about. I'm stuck at my grandma's house which is driving me insane with boredom. I've been downloading Chuck lately. It's kind of alright. I'm learning to love it. Maybe after a couple of episodes, I'll get hooked.  Other than that, I've been writing my novel these days. I've also been listeningto a lot of dark sad songs because I'm trying to get the feel for my novel. So I have been moody, angry and hearbroken for the past 2 days. All of this is for Darius of course. I have already updated the latest chapter. I had a lot of fun writing chapter 20. Its one of the most romantic chapters of the whole novel. You guys are going to hate me after this when you read the upcoming chapters. So embrace the love as...