Shana's Burn Book

  If you wanna freak it some more You know that I'd love 2 baby Indulging in the beats of : Love 2 Baby by Christian TV  Chou

Do you? Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful? Cause there's a hole where your soul should be Your losing control of it and it's really distasteful So many of you know that I like to refer to myself as a bitch . Even though many have stated that I'm far from it, to a certain degree, I can see myself having bitchy outbursts . Being a bitch from my view is not having a very foul or insolent attitude. It's not being a two-face or backstabbing other people to embrace the spotlight. No, being a bitch from my perspective is doing whatever the hell you want regardless of the consequences. It's doing shit for the fun of it and not caring what happens afterwards. Being outspoken and candor in conversations is one act of bitchiness. Fucking up other people's relationship for revenge is also an act of pure female cruelty. You can act like a bitch, promote the fact you are one and spread your evilness to a whole nation but there is one thing a ...

I said its OK I can promise you its alright  You ain't keeping me up all night no more  You're not here but its OK So I exiled myself from my own city, KL due to personal reasons. Sometimes when there is so much bullshit and my one woman show can't fix it, I'll bounce . Besides, it could not be fixed anyway. Mind you, I went back to KL last weekend for some parties but I didn't mention it to anyone who lives around there. Part of my plan was to avoid the people there. Completely isolating myself from this awesome city would be torturous. Duh, it's my home. So I went back just now and told my sister about my presence. When she knows, technically the whole crew (the ones I'm avoiding) will know. Coming back and talking to her after such a long time seemed harmless. Totally wrong.  Seeing the city, passing those usual hangouts and listening to people talking about previous incidents that I'm trying to bury made all the bad memories com...

Buttons are busted, We're decorated, We make an ornament with gold and silver plating. So today was the first day back to class and let's just say taking the bus into campus in a hurry only to find that the lecturer was a no show was kinda frustrating. Thank God Elle and Tasya dropped by for a good gossip session. The best quote of the day was pronounced by Elle and it goes like this - That is one fucking ugly bitch. Seriously, best thing I have heard all week. Later that evening was spent with my favorite cousins Haris and Aqil at Upstairs. We had a long conversation about cool names we would give our children. Try imagining naming your kid based on the characters of Lord of the Rings or the Ninja Turtles. Funny but definitely possible. I kinda hate the fact that I have class on Friday. I wouldn't mind if it was in the morning but it turns out to be an afternoon class. How am I suppose to balik KL in peace? But thankfully I have only one morning class. Other...

I'm standing here alone, Trying to make this life my own. And nothing will keep this heart from beating, I'm still breathing. So I have to admit, my relationship with men is somewhat odd . Some are my sayangs, some my assholes, some my friends with benefits and the list goes on. But bottom line is, they are my friends . I care for my friends, sometimes to a degree that astounds me. But that's just who I am and I don't see that as a negative trait. During my holiday, I made new ones. Friends that I learn to enjoy and care about. But sometimes, friendships don't work out. Even when I swallowed my ego and was willing to put the bullshit aside, some things are just not meant to be I guess. I learned some new things from enduring that complicated friendship. It made me realize things I never knew about me and it made me discover different attitudes of other people. I realized that some things cannot be fixed and no matter how much you  hope for people, some...