The Awesome Friend

Sometimes I wish I could take back everything

I'd be easier to never have known you
I would spare myself so much pain

So after everything I have done, regardless if you noticed it or not, I still get nothing? After the miserable mornings and despair filled nights when you needed someone, I was there without a second thought. I still get nothing? After the pathetic insincere apologies and times when you didn't show up when I needed some comfort. I still get nothing?

When you crashed back into my life during a time of grieving, even though I made it clear that I want nothing more with you, did I say "Fuck off"? No, I was there for you. I could have easily said "Screw you. Why don't you grow up and handle it on your own." But did I say that? NO. I pushed aside my anger and hatred because you were going through something rough and you needed a friend.

and I still get nothing? Seriously?

No Hari Raya message, no thank you message, no simple call of appreciation. Nothing. Nada. Zilch.

"Thanks a lot for being such an awesome friend. I always knew you were like this and it was wrong for me to even think that you could change"

Indulging in the beats of : When it all falls apart by The Veronicas

Chou

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