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I'm Not As Bad As I Look

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That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet

It's been a while since I blogged about my day out. I mostly write about random thoughts that zoom into my head. But today, I really had an awesome day out with my best friend. And the whole experience made me conclude something about myself, which I will tell at the end of the post.

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In Nuruls's words, we look high :)

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Qim: Slow down....

It was the usual day at Pavie, tea at Coffee Bean, a movie for entertainment and a lepak session afterward for a good bitch talk session.  I drank a frozen lemonade instead of coffee, we watched Takers which was actually a good movie (plus banyak hot guys in it) and then we headed to The Castle for drinks.

When I was at Castle with them, we talked about other people, previous college experiences, all while drinking Barbican, shisha-ing and checking out the array of nice looking men hanging out there. When I was in that 'asap' filled environment, with my best friends, at night while drinking very fizzy drinks,  I realized that this is my life.

And the fact that I don't have to hide the real me or tame it for others makes it even more gratifying. I know that some of my activities are negative and other people look down upon it. But I choose to ignore them. I'm in KL and this is how I roll. And I'm actually having a blast.

You think I don't understand the consequences for my actions? I actually do la. But I still do it anyway.

When I left Matrix, I was sort of scared of other people's perception towards the REAL me. But after some time, I let that fear go. I don't wanna hide who I am to my college friends anymore. In many ways I'm still the Shana from KMM. It's just that now, you see the whole of it instead of portions.

After all of this, you still see me as a bitchy haram KL girl, then I don't mind. It's just a perception. But get this, at least I'm honest about who I am.

Indulging in the beats of : Ultraviolet by The Stiff Dylans

Chou

Comments

Anis Sy said…
i just dont get it. kenapa ramai suka barbican?
November 10, 2010 at 12:31 AM
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